A Reflection on January

January… 

I don’t know about you, but this month has felt almost like three months in one. Sometimes, I don’t like it when time moves slowly, and I wish it would all move faster. But, this month, I have been very grateful for how slow the time has been moving, because I know that, as this year goes by, time is going to fly away. 

This spring is a unique time for me. Events that I have waited many, many years for are taking place, and it can be challenging to figure out how to soak it all up when it happens. I am happily taking this time as a season of waiting, preparing, and living for the special moments that are happening right now.

The Cold Makes Me Bitter

That might sound a bit dramatic, but I really have been impatient for winter to finally leave us. The cold has been very bearable, but, in the last few years, I have craved the spring and impatiently waited for its arrival. This year, though, I am trying not to wish winter away as quickly as possible, but to enjoy it as it is. Easier said than done, when I want to go on a nice, warm walk and find that I have to bundle up and avoid all the icy patches. Not to mention the blogging challenges that come with a series of dreary days (aka, no natural sunlight). But the blue skies are finally showing through and I am waiting for the warmer months a bit more contently this season.

My Past Struggles Are Not So Present 

Lately, I have found myself at peace with many of my past struggles. What I used to constantly wrestle with doesn’t look so daunting, and I have been enjoying the peace I’ve felt. I’m finding that, despite the holes I feel in my life, I am not made less whole because of them. I’m not quite sure if that makes sense, or if I even understand it… But God has been showing me that my worth is not found in what I lack, but in what I have through His strength. I don’t feel as much of a need to strive towards what I think will fulfill me; I feel the need to grow in Him to make me the person that He has called me to be. This has been a long time coming, and I am grateful that this realization is finally becoming more clear to me. 

Creativity is Coming Back Around

For a while, I was feeling very drained creatively, and just did not feel the desire to create anything at all. It is normal to go through these seasons, but I am very glad that creativity is coming back to me, because I have missed it dearly. I don’t know exactly where my creativity will take me at this point, but, right now, it looks like testing the water, and getting ready to jump back in.

– Amelia